Tales from Teunis Ranch: May 2012

Thursday, May 10, 2012

Mamas Day

As I look ahead to this Mothers Day weekend, I have to smile. My heart is full of gratitude for the honor and privilege to be a mom. It is my lifelong dream come true. While other girls were aspiring to be doctors or lawyers or veterinarians or members of corporate America, I was daydreaming about babies and one day being a mom. I never imagined just how great it would really be though, or that it would be ALL boys. But what a joy. As I write this now little Sayer is snuggled into me as close as he can get and I just treasure that sweetness, I already had the good night-sleep tight- don't let the bed bugs bite, talk with the teens( yes they still indulge me). Being the mother of teens is a very special treat. Im serious!!!! I love their sense of humor and their take on life experiences, I love the way they still need me even though the needs have changed. I love the child likeness about them even as they are spreading their wings and discovering how high they can fly. Mothering them makes me a better person. But this year another perspective on Mothers Day will be celebrated too. The celebration of the hero and unselfish loving mother that Sayers Birth Mom is. I cannot even begin to imagine the choice she made, or the depth of love that she displayed, but my gratitude to her for it, is immeasurable. I don't know the circumstances that led to her choice but I know she was strong in her resolve. The strength and love she showed through her choice is a beautiful display of a mothers love indeed. She gave me such a precious treasure of a gift and really made every day mothers day for me. I've learned a lot about being a strong and unselfish mom from the woman who couldn't keep her baby to mother herself. Isn't that ironic? So this weekend while I get to enjoy the glory of being a mom, I will be thinking so dearly of the woman who helped make me one, one more time!!!! God Bless birth moms.

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Ricky is in full swing of the college search these days. This is a really exciting time for him and for me. I am so overjoyed to see the young man he has become. I remember so clearly that first moment, almost 18 years ago, when I held him for the first time and the feeling of complete joy and devoted love that just flooded me. I had dreamt my whole life of being a mommy and the moment I held my precious baby, I remember very vividly telling him that he is my very first dream come true. I am so proud of him and look forward to watching his dreams come true. He is a tender heart and a hard worker, a good friend and a fiercely loyal big brother, (sometimes just fierce, but you'll have to talk to talk to Zachary about that.) He is an exceptional young man who has a good head on his shoulders. He is kind and generous and compassionate. His smile lights up his whole face and his seriousness towards just about everything cracks me up daily. Just today he told me, 'Yeah Senior Year is probably gonna be fun', Almost like he had to give himself permission to enjoy it. He is the kind of kid I would want to know even if he wasn't mine. I have spent many years and countless hours praying for the wisdom to lead and direct this boy. I know for certain that the good in him is the God in him. I simply loved him and made choices that reflected that love. I am beyond thankful that God has designed Ricky's heart with a thirst for Him. He is an exceptional human being and it is an honor to be his mom.

Zachary is busy training up his mind and body for football season. He is starting a new school this year for high school and has joined their football team. I am in awe of the dedication he has put forth in this program. I really thought his might just be some passing interest and the hard work would eventually ware him out and he would rather spend his summer days doing other things. Nope. He is committed and focused and I am so proud of him. I am really excited to spend Friday nights under the lights. As I watch the effort he is putting out for football, I am so proud of the whole of who he is. Where Ricky is a pretty serious guy, Zachary is the complete opposite and he is definitely the life of the party. He is smart and kind and funny and he has a memory that baffles us. He can recall information that he was only exposed to briefly and recount situations EXACTLY. I know he is going to accomplish great things. He is someone who cares deeply for others and has such empathy and concern for others. He is intuitive and kind and happy. I think that is the thing about Zachary that really stands out, he is a happy soul. Whether he is whistling or making jabbers with his baby brother or laughing about some random thing that crosses his path, his joy fills the space he is in and then overflows to us all. I do get concerned that someone is going to come along and take advantage of his giving spirit and that life and situations will try to squash that joy in him, but I pray that God guards his heart mightily. There is a country song that has always reminded me so much of Zachary and how he is and who he is, Look Heart, No Hands. Its about embracing all of life and love and living Wide Open. Zachary has always been like a fresh breeze blowing through my life. He is full of life and he's loud. He is such a devoted person, to me and to his brothers and to whoever is lucky enough to know him. He is quick to defend those he loves and has no trouble fighting and standing up for whats right. Where he sometimes has to learn things the hard way, he is open to the lesson and that is the main idea isn't it? He loves The Lord has a big heart for serving Him. He has always been my little bundle of snuggles and rough and tumbles. He is a free spirit and a grounded Oak Tree all at the same time. His thoughtfulness is such a joy to me. He is always writing little notes or making drawings or giving to others in some way. He is one of the most giving people I have ever known. Im so grateful that of all of the choices in the world, God made me his mom.